a quiz for you!

I don't want to do my work, but now you're gone and I have to procrastinate all on my own. are you curious how I'm spending my time whilst avoiding responsibility? well you won't be after you see my list things I'd rather think about than orange juice studies. I wrote it in quiz form just for you!

1. what's more fun than sending an inappropriate, uninvited e-mail at 2 am? not writing a book report, that's for sure.

2. I'd like to see your newly cleaned apartment. you should probably have a dinner party. what are you going to serve? something delicious? ice cream? do you really not like root beer? is this one of those cultural differences?

3. re. people's crazy insecurities: what I was trying to say earlier, before your obfuscating stories distracted me, is that of course you're not responsible for making everyone you meet feel okay about themselves. that would be absurd. likewise, I'm not responsible for sweeping my craziness out of the way just because it's crazy. or someone says that it is (people are always doing that, it helps them ignore their own fucking weirdness).

in fact, it's quite the opposite: I need to make room for craziness. it's like making room for messiness. I may be totally, out of control disorganized, but losing my keys 2 million times taught me to I keep 3 sets around. now when I lose one I can find another and go about my day like a normal person.

so when you say it's my muddled brain that makes me feel undesirable, not your lack of enthusiasm it just sounds sort of absurd to me. obviously I'm insecure, but what the fuck do you want me to do about it? turn it off? I can't even keep my room clean. I can, however, spend time with someone who's actually into me rather than feeling horribly unattractive as I do when I'm with you. what most people don't know, you see, is that crazy is always just a matter of context.

OPTIONAL EXTRA CREDIT: did you mean what you said tonight? would you really trade your time being single in LA for a relationship with one of the girls who got away? sometimes I'm not sure where you're coming from when you wax nostalgic about them, but I'm always curious and I'm always afraid if I ask it will come out wrong and you'll think I'm being combative and then I'll get upset and will actually be combative and blah, blah, blah. that's why I made this an extra credit question, so you can deem it over-personal you can still get full credit.

write soon: I'll be waiting on your endlessly unsatisfying, two-word response with bated breath!

xo,
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Oh jesus, things really are getting blah, blah, blah around here, aren't they? Quick, someone please send me something funny to post so I don't bore myself to death. Even though we both know that the more bored I get the more likely I am to do something really awkward and embarassing and probably in writing. God, even that is predictable.